Happy Day indeed...

boo yea, boo yea, boo yeah! hehe =) I'm very the happy now. very very the happy. wow, this morning, 1.30am till 6.00am plus been yakking on the phone with *someone* ... hehe =) benar benar amat syok. ya, di sini, I nak berterima kasih kepada you kerana mencurahkan kasih sayang dan perasan yang amat syok semasa berbual di talipon. i sangat bergembira. benar. benar ba. i pun tak tahu kenapa you selalu buat i rasa macam sangat dihargai. terima kasih. sudah lama i tak mempunyai perasaan gembira semacam ni.. mungkin kerana sudah lama i berada dalam dunia yang tidak asli... tak asli?? er, i pun tak tau dalam dunia apa yang saya berada dalam.. tapi apa yang saya tahu ialah sebelum ini, saya selalu berada dalam ketakutan.. tetapi tiada yang tahu.. semua orang ingat saya macam biasa saje.. normal.. selalu ketawa terbahak bahak macam si taik babi.. tetapi mereka tidak tahu.. saya berada dalam keperitan..oh.. tak mengapalah.. semua itu sudah berlalu.. sekarang ada seseorang yang berada dalam dunia i.. yang membuat saya berasa gembira.. itu sudah mencukupi untuk i.. i tak perlu lebih.. jadi, saya amatlah berterima kasih kepada you.. anyway, another surprise popped up for me today! my friend Joanne from Taiwan suddenly rang me up and guess what??? She's in Malaysia and she's gonna study here with me! at Taylor's! I'm sooooooo happy and excited~ can't wait to meet her tomorrow~ yeah~ wow, havent seen her in what, 5 years? ain't that long.. wow.. wonder how she looks like now and whether i will be able to recognize her.. happY~ another reason for me being happy.. well.. i wanna type more.. but it's gonna rain and there's thunderstorm now!! kinda scared.. gotta offline!! byebye.. till then.. Joanne!! Welcome to Malaysia!

A Broken Heart

Empty Promises

when you say you care
you leave me standing out there
when you say you'll love
it's never enough
and when you say you'll be
looking after me
i wonder why i stand alone

because it's you, the one who
"cared about me"
and it was you, the one who
"loved endlessly"
and only you, the one who
"looked after me"
but where are you when i'm in need

when i call you
you didn't seem happy
i really tried my best
to make you happy
and when i tried to understand you
you only pushed me far away

i left you messages
and didn't expect any reply
but please baby
just show me a sign
a sign that you care
or even think about me

but now i guess it's all a waste

when you say you care
you leave me standing out there
when you say you'll love
it's never enough
and when you say you'll be
looking after me
i wonder why i stand alone

Waiting...waiting...waitin'...wait...

Wait.

Waiting.

Later.

A little while.

Little while longer.

Everyone tells me to wait. Wait. Wait for it, for it may come. Whatever IT is. They say IT will come. All you need is time. What if I'm tired of waiting? What if I'm ready now and not later. What if I don't want it later? What if I want it now? Now is the time. NOW. If this time is crossed, it's over. OVER. You won't feel the same anymore. What's the use of waiting? We should just do it now. Whatever IT is. Aren't we suppose to follow our instincts? However wrong it may be, it's normally right. Some things needs waiting. Yes. But, once the line is crossed, BYE BYE. Never turn back. The time is up. Everything has a due date. Exams, Assignments, Registrations, and even feelings. Feelings has a due date. I guess it's all up to a certain person. But what about me? I guess my feelings expire fast. It's due. Getting there. Gonna get fined. Haha. Wow. New theory. Once it's due, u get fined. That's when it gets complicated. Well, whatever it is, or when the due date of my feelings are, I don't know. For all I know now, it's still holding on. It's not due yet. Still there. Yeah. But i duno how long its gonna last. How long it will last, I don't know... it all depends on the feeling.. yeap.. cizzo peepz..

*Mitch, Nori, Li Ting, Ashley, Christine* love u guys loads. Thanks for makin' my life full of fun and laughter... =)

S.A.M. Fest!

i'm so damn tired right now.. dancing for like 3 and the 1/2 hours... damn tired.. chunted.. had both R n B and Techno/Trance music.. wicked... Mitch, Li Ting, Ashley and I. Yes, again the four of us. damn gila. there were like 400 pluz people i think.. dun really know.. really hazy (smoky mist) in there.. there was a DJ from Zouk too. music at first was kinda bad.. didn't really like it.. but later things started to get better.. danced to the MAX. there wuz some shuffling going on around too.. nice.. and the fact that we 4 think we're the oldest among the crowd.. haha, there was a guy and 2 guys who wanted to get to know Mitch.. damn rockin' la she.. hehe.. *someone cute* offered me a chair to sit on.. hahaha.. too bad i dun know him.. met a few friends in there.. my leg hurts like hell.. not as bad as the last time though.. and then we drank the water fountain outside the MPH.. damn cooling la.. and there was this one gurl who wuz so sexy and she rocks.. haha.. said sth abt "LALA"... hahha.. all of us laughed and we liked her immediately.. after the fest, we went to Darussalam to eat dinner.. we were all so damn hungry.. didnt eat anything before that.. and during dancing, we all thought that "Yeah, light body, lose weight" haha.. after eating in Darus, "shit, damn fat dy!" haha, and the fact that me and Li Ting always say "Down lo.. Damn down oh..." *Word of the month* Jimmy called me to go out yamcha.. he called me yesterday but then i wuz with Li Ting at my place.. didn't feel like going anyway la.. so i didnt but today he called again.. and i wuz with my friends.. so cannot.. haha.. then he was like "always kena reject only.." hahaa... Sorry lo Jimmy! Sorry to ur cousin too! oh well, Mitch dropped me home and she was super tired and wanted to go straight home.. so that's it for S.A.M. Fest! ZOUK tomorrow.. here we come.. the law students are gonna dominate it tomorrow.. =) yeah..!!

In-House Clubbing & The Rest

yaahoooo!! had so much fun in-house clubbing the other day! thanks to Li Ting, Ashley, Mitch and myself~! Wow..damn chunted..Imagine.. Hot.. sweat.. girls.. clubbing music.. that creates the whole scence~ Haha, DOLL! You had so much fun too yea? love u man!! Oh.. before that, we gurls went to Pyramid to chill and hang out.. played Daytona.. then Gamemasters.. then we walked and talked and ate in Kim Gary ~ as usual ~ oh, went shopping too~ and earlier in da morning, about 11.30am, those crazy gurls called me and woke me up to go out and eat.. they were like already outside my house honking and making so much noise.. duno received how many miscalls oredi! yorrr... u girls ah... patience is a virtue... hahahaha !! then ZOOM.. straight to the bathroom, bathed, changed and ergh, just got into the car!! went to eat Tom Yam Fried Rice.. nice.. with egg ~ then only went to Pyramid.. ya ya.. then only went In- House clubbing.. yeah.. thats the whole scenario~ AND TODAY... haha, went to lectures as usual.. then skipped gpl.. *shh* hehe.. went to eat nasi lemak~ then went back to library.. kononnya wanna prepare to do GPL exam online.. but then no time, coz we had GPL tutorials.. then after tutorials only went to library back again.. BLUR... duno what the heck to do.. wasting time there.. then while all my hardworking lawmates were doing their work, i went home.. and sleep.. until about 6pm.. actually wanted to go 1 Utama.. but Li Ting was stuck in the traffic jam.. haha.. nvm.. waited till around 7.. went to The Web to do the online exam thingie.. didn't wanna do it but everyone was like "Nur'i.. do la.. u better do!" bla bla bla.. so just went ahead and did it.. answered crap.. oh.. and then me and Christine went to Melur to have dinner.. ate nasi goreng and telur.. also, roti canai potong.. suddenly... HEAVY RAIN!! *splish splash* waited for Li Ting to come to the rescue as she and Michelle was in Darussalam eating duno what.. haha, then Li Ting... the Little Ting Tong gurl.. petite yet cute and doesn't fear danger! to the rescue!! she came with an umbrella, saving Christine first then me.. nice nice.. thanks Li Ting! then waited for Christine's dad to fetch her home.. haha.. then we went to Pyramid (yes, again) to watch movie.. sadly, people like Li Ting and me who have not much of a life here in KL.. practically watched all the movies shown in the cinema.. so tak jadi watch la.. went walking here n there.. shop by shop.. duno doing wat.. always say wanna buy this n that but tak jadi buy also.. in the end, ended up at Starbucks.. drank VANILLA FRAPPUCINO! yum yum.. extra cream!! i asked for extra. then the guy gave. then when Michelle ask the 2nd time, say must pay RM1.50.. what the heck?? oh well.. duno.. nvm.. we drank happily.. haha, talked crap mostly.. oh, took so many gila pictures in TingTong's phone.. and then the most tragic thing happened... i volunteered to insert the money and ticket for the car parking thingie la.. so i was innocently pressing the button for the receipt.. then all of a sudden.. i got ELECTRICUTED.. what the heck? i SCREAMT (is there such a word?) so damn loud.. like kena fei lei like that.. aiyoyo.. MooMoo and Michelle starring at me one kind only... hhahaha... well well... they didn't know i could be that crazy.. hahaa.. oh well.. the day ended there.. and now im back home onlining.. and downloading so much music.. music rockz!! till here.. c ya!

This is drivin' me insane!

Have any of you been in a situation where u miss someone so damn badly but just couldn't call or message the person to tell them how u exactly feel? You just CAN'T no matter how badly you want to just tell them. This really suck. I have never in my life experience such torture. This is seriously hurting my heart bit by bit. It's aching. My fragile heart is aching once again! Does any of you have a solution to this? As in what kinda things do you do to keep off your mind of the person? Ergh! I can't even sleep at night or rest properly and it's like you're thinking about the person 24/7! And to know that the other party does not even give a shit about you or your feelings, or then again, not feelings strong as this. Oh man, oh boy, oh whatever. HELP! Desperate need of help. Yelp.

Feeling Played?

This is something from me to all you girls out there. Although it happened to me a long time ago, I just wanna share my experiences. I'm very aware of my feelings. In fact, YES, me, me and only me, da one and only Nur'i. I have been played before. And it hurts really bad. I know because I went through that already. It really took so much of inside me. I was afraid to be hurt again. I couldn't trust guys again after that. Really. But, I did a huge mistake of rejecting 3 guys that was seriously in love with me. They were loving me and not fooling around. But I just couldn't trust them because I'm afraid to even have any feelings with any of them. I know, in the end, I'll be hurt once again. So many times I've told myself, "Don't be silly, Nur'i. They're all just playing your feelings. No one would really like you, especially when that guy is good looking". But, again and again I let that come into my life. I feel so restless. No. Cute guys couldn't possibly like me. How could they and why would they when there are so many other beautiful and smart girls around? They don't need someone like me. Like, whatever for? I admit, I'm the kind of person who can have crushes easily but soon just forget about the person the next. Haha, wanna know what? I slapped myself to like get out from dream world. It's like so damn weird when a cute guy asks me out. I would like never ever believe it until I slapped my face. Haha. But, I'm still waiting for the right one. The one who understands me, respects me and would never force or tell me to do whatever I do not want to do or say. Please, don't even flirt with me if you don't have the right intention. Don't get me addicted into you. Don't say those words if you don't mean it anyway. Don't make me sacrifice so much for you if you're just playing my feelings. Don't even get into my life. Don't make me feel like dirt the next when you tell me it's all a lie. Don't tell me that all these while it's just a joke. Don't even dare to ask me to call or text you when you just want to play me. Being played sucks. You don't know what my feelings are. It's aching and aching every single moment. Advise to everyone out there, never let someone play your feelings, because your feelings are very important and no one should have the right to treat you that way. Remember this.

One

When I saw you for the first time
I knew you were the one
You didn't say a word to me
but love was in the air

When you held my hand
pulled me into your world
from then all of my life
has changed for you now
I never feel lonely again
'coz you're in my life

Love, how can I explain to you
the way I feel inside
when I think of you
I thank you
for everything that you showed me
Don't you ever forget
that I love you

Love, I know that
someday will soon
you'll be right next to me

Holding me so tight
so I'll always be yours
although we can't be together now
remember I am here for you
when I know you're there for me

Whenever I long to be with you
I just close my eyes and pretend
you're here I see you I touch you
I feel you I will nothing can ever change
what I feel inside

How long must I
be far away from you
I don't know dear
but I know we are one

Good Charlotte Rocks!!
Nur'i

disappointed....

i wuz going to class as usual again.. late.. everythin wuz fine till criminal class. well, guess what. i failed criminal law. so far, my lecturer marked 15 papers but only 2 passed, im on of them who failed. although i knew i didnt study for this exam, but still, i feel so bad. what if i can't do well for finals? this is so depressing. came home, switched on d aircond, went to bed. still after waking up, can't forget about it. and now, im stressed. having contract tutorials tomorrow. i havent done a thing. and my written work which has like 3 essay questions to do and type out and having to read that particular case which is about 7 pages long. all words. small tiny words. D. E. A. D. argh!!! somemore, the essay questions are like so confusing and so hard to do. gonna get bombarded by my lecturer already..believe me u wouldnt wanna mess around with her. am right now, i'm very hungry. was thinking of boiling porridge to eat since no mood to go out and eat. ahhh... I JUST WANNA LIVE..by Good Charlotte. cizzo. =(

Why?

I don't know why people just love hurting me. Not just people. Certain people. They just feel, "Oh, at least I made Nur'i feel bad" They just love to terrorize me. They know what kind of a person I am, like how sensitive and emotional I can be, they just deliberately do it all the sake of revenge (maybe) or just b'coz they know I'm weak. Sometimes, when u get to know someone more better and then u eventually get to know more but still, all parts are not visible. Until after something happened, and it didn't struck their head-harded brain on what's going on. And when that happens, the true self comes. How evil, cunning, selfish and wicked they can be. Friends, the world we live in is such a mess because of people like these. Advise to people these SPECIES, GET A LIFE!! GROW UP!! Don't be so lame. And, never ever make me feel bad just to hurt me. Although I did, I just realized that it's SO NOT WORTH it, especially from your kinda species. Just wanted to make me suffer eh? Guess what, I'm not even keen on meeting these species anymore. If possible, just vanish. With pleasure I am not sorry for what I did. Not at all. No. I am glad. GLAD.

TiRing DaY

wow... after 3 long butt hours on the plane, i finally got back on land... dudes... butt ass pain.. its the worse!! u gonna like move ur ass... hahaha... anyways....met someone i knew, but didnt end up talking... well, i guess he didn't want to either.. since... we've lost contact for like.. several years.. oh well.. then.. met up with my beloved bro...we talked and yakked.. yeah... good times... well, came back, cleared all the shitz n dusts in muh room.. seriously man.. it stinks in here.. worse... the bloody air cond isnt working.. wonder who spoilt it!! and then.. well.. the sign on my door is crushed... i wonder who did it too.. so many mishaps.. just in a week... guess someone up there is angry with me.. or.. mayb... giving me signs... to me... but to wat?? beware?? well.. im rite now chatting with my best maite.. steph (a.k.a tep tep # 2 - tep #1 seldom online) anyway.. she's happy.. and has a gorgeous hunk with her.. oh well.. guess she's doing fine... im very happy for her!! anyways.. today's Monica's Birthday!! Happy Birthday Mon Mon!! Hope u have a great time today!! and er.. miss Sofia already.. Sorry Sofia.. for not waking up and fetching u to school today!! too tired!! and thanks so much for the presents.. and of course.. the disc walkman!! u rock!! thanks!! i love it.. hehehe.. and.. im a lil pissed.. someone's using the washing machine now.. i checked and it wasnt used just now.. just when i was about to go load my stuff in it, its USED!!! ergh... hafto wait.. and im hungry.. my tummy's hurt.. ahhh.. the injection stain on my hand is still visible.. a little blue black... went to extract blood... to test for cancer, hiv, hepatitis, thyroid and all those necessary ones.. results coming out in a week.. wish me luck~ pray for me that its all negative.. anyway... gtg now.. craving for food... cizzo peepz!! lurve all of u who gives support to this blog and for brightening my life!!